For those of you that are reading and following my journey, thank you!!! You really are playing a role in helping me remain accountable. If I did not have you to report into who knows the shenanigans I would be into!
At this point in the game, food is becoming a little different for me. Not to say I’ve got this all figured out, but I’ve been keeping notes on how I feel after I eat and the one major thing I notice is the lack of lethargy.
I am also noticing that when I have a sugar craving, like I did today when they served Tiramisu at the meeting, that I find myself tasting it mentally and then almost simultaneously thinking to myself that it’s not worth the crash later.
Hey if I’m delusional, don’t wake me up! I mean if I have actually gotten to the point, on day 9, that I have a new relationship with food, then woohoo!!!
Here are some examples of why I think there might be some merit to this program. I eat eggs for breakfast and don’t freak out (anymore) about not being able to add cheese. The lunch offering at the meeting was a pitiful sight for a clean eater such as my self, 🙂 but I did manage to have a chicken breast and some veggies, actually enjoyed their natural flavor, and did.not.touch.the.dessert. I made it to Target around 4:00, was hungry by this point, but I waited till I was through to savor a Cashew Cooke Larabar vs. noshing on whatever. PS- Have you tried the Cashew Cookie Larabar?!? OMG…GOOOODDD!!! For dinner I had mashed cauliflower with cashews. Sounds weird but it was decent.
Here is the even better news! My son was having chicken and potatoes (frozen) and I gave half a thought to having some. Then he added cheese and I was like “oh well”. OH WELL?!? Who the hell have I become that CHEESE glorious CHEESE is no longer (or at least not currently) holding a special place of value in my heart??? It’s madness #SMH
So all in all, a great day 9, with the exception of the sound of silence in my head. I usually experience this when I am out at a bar and head to the bathroom and can actually hear myself think. Ok, this is also when I notice I may have had one too many. Anyway, it’s that sound when there is no sound, but you can hear it. Like a fluorescent lightbulb hum but really, really low. You know you know what I mean!
Days 8-9 were supposed to be about bloating, but so far so good and fingers crossed. No idea what 10-11 hold because I refuse to look! Some may call that stubborn; I call that being present today. There is enough to handle without fretting over what tomorrow holds.
Here are the final reasons I think I might be getting a grip on things. First, I forgot which day in the count this was believe it or not. Second, and a much cooler reason, I’m in a new role at work and this week’s meeting brings in everyone from the field, which means when we are all together I know like 5% of the people. This is a major stressor for me. Some that know me might think this is odd, but this meme is totally accurate!
In the past, like 9 days ago haha, if this feeling were to emerge I would feed it with food; typically the chocolatey kind. There was a Starbucks on site today, and would have been the perfect time for me to soothe with a Pumpkin Spice Latte, but I didn’t! Huge progress!
I think I actually just acknowledged why I was feeling awkward, gave a nod to it, and moved on. WHOA…who knew that would work! 🙂
So I’m charging head on into Day 10. All I can say is that I hope I continue to learn about me, my body, and my mind through these remaining three weeks.
Oh, one last thing. Totally irrelevant, but I came across this earlier and about spit out my water. I might resemble this remark:
See ya tomorrow!