Can I be honest with you guys? I am sooo over this! All I have had for the last week are dreams about McDonald’s, Imo’s pizza, chocolate, cupcakes…and then I wake up in a panic because I am so mad at myself for cheating!
All of my energy this week has been spent on keeping myself straight! I wonder if all this is normal? One moment please, I will go read the Whole30 Timeline…
Well. Looks like I’m normal (whole30 normal that is). Apparently, these last several days are typically all about the food I want, but can’t have. Let me tell you, I even picked up Wendy’s for my son, chocolate for my daughter, and passed on a cupcake at work. WTF?!
Am I going to see differences? Are these 30 days really going to be worth all this work? And it is a lot of work…I think I told you a long time ago, I don’t cook. Looks like I do now; both of my kids have even commented on WTH is wrong with me?! They know I hate cooking. But you know what I hate more? CHEATING. And all I seem to have in my mind is ALL the bad stuff.
According to the Whole30 Timeline: “this phase gets really intense and for some people. This is the part of the program where our minds try to drive us back to the comfort of the foods we used to know. Our food relationships are deeply rooted and strongly reinforced throughout the course of our lives and breaking through them is really big deal. Journaling can be especially enlightening and helpful during this phase, and helpful for reflection later. Take some time to jot down what you’re craving, how you’re feeling and what tools you’re using to work through the cravings.” (source credit)
I’ve been expecting this phase I guess, while at the same time hoping this would continue to be a breeze. All my questioning of why this has been pretty easy (Whole30, day 9. Delirious or Beautiful Minding It?), I knew it had to come to an end.
Tonight sitting at my son’s football game everyone around me was eating pretzels with cheese, funnel cake, freshly made potato chips…FREAKN CHOCOLATE. I think chocolate is turning out to be the hardest. My daughter ate a Twix sitting next to me last night and I could smell the chocolate. LORD HELP ME!!!
Of course I don’t want anyone else to not eat what they want just because of my decision. but dang… woosaa. 10 more days to go. 10 more days to go. woosaa
Honestly I can hardly wait to see what this ends up being about; the changes I see and more importantly feel. My expectations are high. I better feel so damn good that I don’t want to eat any other way.
I see all boundless energy- yes please! Hasn’t happened yet. But I’m going to hang in there. Heck I may even make myself a t-shirt that says “everyone around me survived MY Whole30″!
Ok kittens, I’m off to bed. Tomorrow is a new day, and I did peek at the timeline this time. I’m supposed to experience Tiger Blood over these next few days. Umm ok, that’ll be interesting. Details on that later.